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Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: This Dying Soul am Juli 07, 2005, 10:33:07 Nachmittag
well, this will be my last post here at the boards I believe, so I just thought to tell people before I go to take care and I hope that your lifes will be good to you.

For a long time this place felt kinda like home for me, or rather a part of home. I felt wanted and cared for by alot of people, made friends and had trust in people here. I felt that no matter what went wrong during the day when I was not online or when I was out on the road happened, that when I came to this place it all would go away, that I could just breath and enjoy reading what things people wrote in here..

In the past there were times that I have gotten involved with a thread that was arguementive or have created arguements in the past that could have been without. but they were always plesently dealt with and were sorted through and in the end everything was ok..

but now it seems that with the opening of the new domain and the coming of new people things hav changed. people are here any more caring for others. people arent here to live the life of a cyber party. and to be totally honest I think and feel that people are really starting to become snobbish here.. and because of this I have spent less time on the boards..

at one point in time when we were using the old domain, I was the highest poster that wasnt a mod or an admin of all the boards, hence the reason they called me board whore here.... I even had more post then half the bleeding for metal crew members.. and things where live.. if all went dead I would do or say something that would bring spark back to the boards.. those days were grand...

i am not imposing that because people dont pay as much attention to me any more that I am going to leave the boards. I am not one to want the lime light... but the fact that my existence is almost totaly ignored and seems to be unapreciated I feel I am not wanted nor am i needed any more around here..

so with that, take care, be good and stay safe.. God Bless all and you will always stay with me in heart and be their in mind... I will pray for you all and your familys for good health and blessings....

if some one could give Dimitris my e-mail addy rollinlow25@hotmail.com and tell him to contact me when he has time I would greatly apreciate it.. tell him that I love him and miss him like a brother.....

Nat and Basti, great work you two have done here with every thing.. and thanks for giving me as well as others a place to come to enjoy for long times its been here. good luck in life and with your business with bleeding... you guys ROCK!!!

to Dad.. (tex) man we have had some times talking eh.. been great to have known you.. and thanks for helping me with things when I am troubled.. and some day I will give a call again.....

metalmaiden and metalRN you to be safe and be good to each other.. I thank you I thank you as well for every thing you have been to me....... enjoy each other.. love is way to far and few between.. and true love is once in a life time..

to every one else old and new. enjoy life and every one here.. I wish you all well...


one of the greatest things that I will miss will be that when something is wrong or I am having an issue that I wont have this place any more to come to to talk about it.. I really hate to go.. but I feel as iff it must be done....


Love and regrets.

Ryan J.Gartland
Titel: Re: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: TexJoachim am Juli 07, 2005, 10:42:49 Nachmittag
Zitat von: "This Dying Soul"
to Dad.. (tex) man we have had some times talking eh.. been great to have known you.. and thanks for helping me with things when I am troubled.. and some day I will give a call again.....


Any time.
May our paths cross again in the future.

Greetz,

Tex
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: Cecilia am Juli 08, 2005, 01:57:06 Vormittag
Zitat von: "This Dying Soul"
HEY!!! NOOOOO!!!! you cant leave me.. I dont know what i am going to do with out my stephie calling me her "Ryan Bear"!!!!!!!

I hope that you will come back to the boards and back to us with good news and new things going on in life... will miss you terribly and love you to death and back... thank you for always being there and being a true friend!!!!!!! God Bless and take care.... *sniff* Sniff*




Atleast for you this time it's just off the boards.

*already feels lonely*  :(
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: The Metal RN am Juli 08, 2005, 02:22:37 Vormittag
Take care Ryan, maybe some day when we are in the same side of the country we will meet!
Best of luck in your endeavors with the store and your pride and joy!!!
Titel: Re: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: This Dying Soul am Juli 08, 2005, 03:03:46 Vormittag
Zitat von: "TexJoachim"
Zitat von: "This Dying Soul"
to Dad.. (tex) man we have had some times talking eh.. been great to have known you.. and thanks for helping me with things when I am troubled.. and some day I will give a call again.....


Any time.
May our paths cross again in the future.

Greetz,

Tex



Steph. you know more then anything that I love you till the moon and back.. and their is much in store for us away from here... but whether here, chat or e-mail and or phone we will have and be with each other until the moon rises for the last time.. and it will stay that way until we are finally in each others arms.. I love you like the sun loves the skys.. like God loves the world............
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: Souleraser am Juli 08, 2005, 06:42:31 Vormittag
Farewell, Ryan. Sorry about the way things evolved, but on the other hand, if you didn't feel at home here anymore, it's definitely the only appropriate choice to leave.
All the best to you and those you love.
Take care!
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: Prab am Juli 08, 2005, 08:06:50 Vormittag
Farewell and all the best man!
We haven't really known each other, but I was very well aware of your presence here, be sure about that.
It's always sad when a member of the B4M family leaves :(

I wish you best of luck in love and life man!

Take care and never forget to rock!

Greetz from Vienna
Prab
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: Odin am Juli 08, 2005, 08:19:20 Vormittag
Sorry from me as well, Ryan. We will still be available for discussions in the future.

Have all the best in life.
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: Virvatuli am Juli 08, 2005, 11:24:19 Vormittag
It's sad that you are leaving, but most things don't last forever...

I wish you all the good on your journey!
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: Metalmaiden am Juli 09, 2005, 04:58:22 Nachmittag
Yeah, that was a great time back on the old boards.....but time marches on. I'm at a very busy time these days. Don't get to check in too often and I sometimes miss whole topics when postings are high. (Just got to seeing the pics you posted of your son you proud papa you! Wonderful kid you lucky guy.)

As much as our B4M cyber family has been great, and I'd do anything I could to help out any of my friends here if called upon,  our real life families are our first priority. But I will always make time and  have an ear if you need one.

So, with sadness in my heart, let me tell you I will miss you.

Farewell Ryan and take care.
Titel: Re: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: Mas am Juli 10, 2005, 01:52:36 Vormittag
Zitat von: "This Dying Soul"

In the past there were times that I have gotten involved with a thread that was arguementive or have created arguements in the past that could have been without. but they were always plesently dealt with and were sorted through and in the end everything was ok..

but now it seems that with the opening of the new domain and the coming of new people things hav changed. people are here any more caring for others. people arent here to live the life of a cyber party. and to be totally honest I think and feel that people are really starting to become snobbish here.. and because of this I have spent less time on the boards..

Ryan J.Gartland


I am sorry that this is one of the reasons you left this boards, i bet even the snobbish people will miss you a lot.

edit:  and take care, we hope to see you back
 :wink:
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: AngelOfMusic am Juli 10, 2005, 05:53:35 Vormittag
I have to wonder if this was spawned by the "fathers day" thread.

Regardless, you aren't the only one that feels ignored here.  Honestly, I feel that most of the regulars ignore me, but I'm still here.  I guess I'm just stubborn. ;)

Regardless, I'm sorry you feel the way you do about these boards.  Good luck out there in that crazy soap opera they call the real world. :)
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: Odin am Juli 10, 2005, 05:04:13 Nachmittag
Zitat von: "AngelOfMusic"
Honestly, I feel that most of the regulars ignore me, but I'm still here.  I guess I'm just stubborn. ;)


Did you hear that, too? I'm sure there was ... something... hmmm.... ;)

No, seriously, did you mean this in dead earnest?  :shock:  Actually, you ARE one of the regulars, aren't you? The others just try not to bite as you know, haha. ;)
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: Souleraser am Juli 10, 2005, 05:35:47 Nachmittag
Zitat von: "AngelOfMusic"

Regardless, you aren't the only one that feels ignored here.  Honestly, I feel that most of the regulars ignore me, but I'm still here.  I guess I'm just stubborn. ;)


Besides of the simple fact that I share Odin's opinion about you indeed being one of the regulars around here, please allow me to ask the question what makes you believe that you're being ignored?  :shock:

Personally, I don't  (never did and never will) reply to topics to which I don't have anything sensible to add - that's never ment personal of course.
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: Lestat am Juli 10, 2005, 05:58:48 Nachmittag
@Ryan: Well, it's pretty sad that you leave the board, although I did not know you...but its always sad when somebody leaves the community...well keep on rocking.

@Angel Of Music: I just can agree with AoP...I am on miore than one board active and have a life besides Internet, so I gotta to ignore everything which is not of special intereset....
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: AngelOfMusic am Juli 10, 2005, 06:37:09 Nachmittag
Well yeah, I DO kind of feel ignored.  But it occurred to me early this morning that it simply could be that I don't post anything worthwile.  Or anything very interesting, perhaps.  I think about half of the regulars here are staff, or have been here MUCH longer than I, so you've all developed relationships with one another.  I've only been here...what?  A year?  That might also make a difference.

I'm sorry if I alarmed/upset anyone!  I was just trying to let Ryan know he wasn't alone in his feelings.

Besides, feeling ignored is better than feeling hated. ;)  There's one board I go to that I wont leave simply because it feels like if I do, the people there will think they chased me off (and there ARE a few people there I like and get along with).  Besides, when you guys DO respond, it usually turns into an interesting conversation.  Which I guess goes back to the first paragraph I posted in this response. :)

But it IS just the internet, if I felt being ignored was a huge deal to me, I'd do what Ryan is doing and leave - minus the "goodbye" message.

But!  I'm not leaving, and I'm still trying to integrate myself into the B4M forum community.  Some of my feelings are produced internally instead of from outside influences, too.  I guess I'm still trying to find my niche here, that's all. :)
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: Mas am Juli 10, 2005, 09:57:46 Nachmittag
AngelOfMusic, i didnt know you felt ignored by some people, maybe it looks like that i ignore people too but its a difficult board for me in english and i do my best not to ignore people.
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: The Metal RN am Juli 10, 2005, 09:57:54 Nachmittag
Well you do have a very important niche here ay the B4M community. We all do and I think everyone contributes in their own special way. Sometimes I just like to read the posts and watch everyone else discuss the topics, I learn just as much from that, and the thread is just as important to me, as are the posters!!!! :)
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: Prab am Juli 11, 2005, 07:26:59 Vormittag
I can totally agree with The Metal RN!
That's what I'd say too.
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: Odin am Juli 11, 2005, 11:21:17 Vormittag
Zitat von: "AngelOfMusic"

But it IS just the internet, if I felt being ignored was a huge deal to me, I'd do what Ryan is doing and leave - minus the "goodbye" message.


Very healthy point of view, I think. Not meaning I like the idea of you leaving us, of course! ;)
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: Cecilia am Juli 11, 2005, 04:54:14 Nachmittag
Zitat von: "AngelOfMusic"
Well yeah, I DO kind of feel ignored.  But it occurred to me early this morning that it simply could be that I don't post anything worthwile.  Or anything very interesting, perhaps.  I think about half of the regulars here are staff, or have been here MUCH longer than I, so you've all developed relationships with one another.  I've only been here...what?  A year?  That might also make a difference.

I'm sorry if I alarmed/upset anyone!  I was just trying to let Ryan know he wasn't alone in his feelings.

Besides, feeling ignored is better than feeling hated. ;)  There's one board I go to that I wont leave simply because it feels like if I do, the people there will think they chased me off (and there ARE a few people there I like and get along with).  Besides, when you guys DO respond, it usually turns into an interesting conversation.  Which I guess goes back to the first paragraph I posted in this response. :)

But it IS just the internet, if I felt being ignored was a huge deal to me, I'd do what Ryan is doing and leave - minus the "goodbye" message.

But!  I'm not leaving, and I'm still trying to integrate myself into the B4M forum community.  Some of my feelings are produced internally instead of from outside influences, too.  I guess I'm still trying to find my niche here, that's all. :)


Now that Ryan is gone from the board, I can hit on you all I want. (jk, i'm not lesbo)

<3 AoM
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: AngelOfMusic am Juli 11, 2005, 06:59:54 Nachmittag
Zitat von: "Cecilia"


Now that Ryan is gone from the board, I can hit on you all I want. (jk, i'm not lesbo)

<3 AoM



hahaha, yeah!  

Don't worry, I won't be offended.  When I was at college I had three girls that wanted to date me.  Which REALLY confused me because I was like "Now why don't I have this luck with boys???"  Their response "Girls appreciate a strong woman more than guys do!"  Didn't help my single situation any, but I felt a bit better about myself.   :mrgreen:

But yeah, I forgot about that.  With Ryan gone, who will fight with you for my affections? :(

 :D  :lol:
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: Odin am Juli 11, 2005, 07:22:52 Nachmittag
Point your finger to whoever you want to, AngelOfMusic!  :D
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: Mas am Juli 11, 2005, 08:22:55 Nachmittag
Zitat von: "Mas"
AngelOfMusic, i didnt know you felt ignored by some people, maybe it looks like that i ignore people too but its a difficult board for me in english and i do my best not to ignore people.


Mas said someting.................... no comments?  :P
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: AngelOfMusic am Juli 12, 2005, 12:19:11 Vormittag
Zitat von: "Mas"
Zitat von: "Mas"
AngelOfMusic, i didnt know you felt ignored by some people, maybe it looks like that i ignore people too but its a difficult board for me in english and i do my best not to ignore people.


Mas said someting.................... no comments?  :P


Hey, no big deal.  I think it's cute. ;)  Besides, the best way to get better at it is to use it more and more.  Besides, most people who have English as a first language don't speak it very well. ;)
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: Virvatuli am Juli 13, 2005, 12:28:49 Vormittag
Hmh. Interesting.
I've never really paid attention to it, because I'm ignored all the time in real life too.
But I can understand that you guys can feel that way around here especially, because I guess that people just do as I do (read through the threads and then don't have any time to come up with something "wise" to reply...)
But it doesn't mean that I wouldn't still like reading your messages and stuff.

Now, I'm a Finn ;) A callous little bastard.
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: dorian jane am Juli 13, 2005, 09:47:28 Nachmittag
@Ryan: It's always sad when someone is leaving (and i don't only mean a forum).
Still, if you think you have to do so, i can only wish you the best.
There are many rivers to cross in life, and this is not one.So, no regrets Ryan.Be well.

@To those of you who feel ignored: .You are not ignored.You just feel like you are.
Try to raise yr self esteem a bit.You are smart and wise and beautiful. You just have to believe you are.And don't let anybody tell you otherwise.
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: This Dying Soul am Juli 14, 2005, 02:35:31 Vormittag
hrmmm, well I dont know what to say..

I guess it is nice to know that people here care about the fact that I am here. but all the same. this is a part of my life, so regardless what angel of music says, if you become involved with the internet and people on the internet, and you truly care for them you are going to take things as such to heart..

alot of people always say this is the internet, you cant take it seriously,  well Im here to call bullshit on that.. because we wouldnt have a forum that is as close knit as it is if we didnt give a shit about the other users.... yeah I  might be a bit extreme about it at times.. but I treat this place which is so special to me as I do special places in life.

another reason that I am leaving here is because I have made this s bit more of importance in my life then things in my life.. which is all part of the other things that I have allowed to be in the way..... MY 5 year old son is having problems. and it is all due to his mommy and daddy divorcing, he thinks that his father does not love him any more. he feels that I have abandoned him. and this is another reason that i am leaving... because I have not been consistant on talking to him every night... and alot of that is due to working late nights. and also due to my spending so much time online...

so these are other reasons that I will not be here. maybe i might pop in a couple of times a week and say hello... but for now I just come in and read what is going on....

angel, Im sorry that you feel the way you do... but it is a two way street I guess..

stephanie you go right ahead and flirt with angel.. you will need some one to take my place..

every one else you rock for life.. and my love for you as friends will never change...

peace out!
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: AngelOfMusic am Juli 14, 2005, 03:15:06 Vormittag
Ryan, you misunderstood what I was saying.

 it IS just the internet, and the majority of the people one encounters on the internet are not worth getting angry/upset/depressed over.  In short, I find REAL life more important than what people might think of me online.  You yourself JUST said that the internet was becoming more important.  You obviously identified that it was becoming a problem and have chosen to focus on the real world instead.  How is that different from what I was saying?

I have friends on the internet.  In fact, one of the best friends I've ever had, I met online first.  But that is one, not a majority.  A large number of the people I encounter online are jerks, and really not worth my time. Did you miss my "B4M, my Heavy Metal Haven" thread, where I praised the people here in this community?  Or maybe you completely missed the "shadowman on a low profile thread" where I (and everyone else here) lamented his abscence.  

So regardless of whether or not I feel ignored, I obviously feel this place is worth sticking with.  I wasn't blaming the feeling of being ignored on anyone but myself.  Or did you miss the "perhaps I don't contribute much worthwile" or "I just haven't found my niche" comments?  And for the record, those ARE NOT self pitying comments (I'm aware of how many drama queens there are online) but merely my own musing over possibilities.  (I have since found that the former is not the case, though I still don't feel I've found a niche, but that's MY problem, and I'm digressing...)

I don't begrudge you wishing to move on, but please don't go attacking me.  ESPECIALLY when I was merely trying to show that I sympathize, and I understood the feeling of being ignored.  In the future, I would appreciate it, (if you care so much as you claim) to not assume that I don't care for others on the internet.

Good bye, Ryan.
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: This Dying Soul am Juli 14, 2005, 03:36:04 Nachmittag
Zitat von: "AngelOfMusic"
Ryan, you misunderstood what I was saying.

 it IS just the internet, and the majority of the people one encounters on the internet are not worth getting angry/upset/depressed over.  In short, I find REAL life more important than what people might think of me online.  You yourself JUST said that the internet was becoming more important.  You obviously identified that it was becoming a problem and have chosen to focus on the real world instead.  How is that different from what I was saying?

I have friends on the internet.  In fact, one of the best friends I've ever had, I met online first.  But that is one, not a majority.  A large number of the people I encounter online are jerks, and really not worth my time. Did you miss my "B4M, my Heavy Metal Haven" thread, where I praised the people here in this community?  Or maybe you completely missed the "shadowman on a low profile thread" where I (and everyone else here) lamented his abscence.  

So regardless of whether or not I feel ignored, I obviously feel this place is worth sticking with.  I wasn't blaming the feeling of being ignored on anyone but myself.  Or did you miss the "perhaps I don't contribute much worthwile" or "I just haven't found my niche" comments?  And for the record, those ARE NOT self pitying comments (I'm aware of how many drama queens there are online) but merely my own musing over possibilities.  (I have since found that the former is not the case, though I still don't feel I've found a niche, but that's MY problem, and I'm digressing...)

I don't begrudge you wishing to move on, but please don't go attacking me.  ESPECIALLY when I was merely trying to show that I sympathize, and I understood the feeling of being ignored.  In the future, I would appreciate it, (if you care so much as you claim) to not assume that I don't care for others on the internet.

Good bye, Ryan.


go over and read your words here again. and maybe you will see more so that it is you who is doing the attacking.. none the less. off I go...

and yes Angel you and your comments are one of the "big" reasons that I am not wanting to be here any more...
Titel: I will be leaving the boards
Beitrag von: Odin am Juli 14, 2005, 03:53:20 Nachmittag
*shakes his head in bewilderment*

I don't see any attacking anywhere around here at all. AngelOfMusic has a fine load of irony or even sarcasm around at times, but well, that's it and that's nothing bad, it's fun.

Nuff said, EOT.