I could really use some postive tunes right now. It's only been hours since my long term relationship (three years after all) broke up.
I've got this steady queasy, dull feeling in my stomach. I fear that it'll take some time to get rid of these things.
The thing is I can't really listen to music right now. Let's see, what bands do I have on my iPod... okay, Mercenary, I really love their music, but nope, too emotional and melancholic for me right now... same applies to everything by Sonata Arctica... hm.. what about some thrash metal, I listened to Testament on my way to work today... but, somehow I hardly noticed the music, I was stuck in thoughts/memories. Okay, I remember in the past, when I was in similar situations (you know, this "just broke up, everything seems so depressing" time) I started to listen to bands I've not really known or cared for before. It was always something "harder" or "more extreme" than everything else I was listening to in those days. That's how I really turned to Metallica, years ago, or that's how I discovered Children of Bodom years ago.
Still... I imagine listening to some NILE or HATE or some bands like that... but I don't feel like that would help me out really much. Hm...
Well... I don't have any idea of what songs will accompany through these times that are ahead.
Damn, still can't believe this finally happened.
Sorry for being whiny